Log: General Update

I finished NaNoWriMo successfully, with 50031 words per my little novel. It’s not yet a good novel, and I’d change many things, and I will change many things, and see how that works out, before publishing any of it.

Other than that, I’ve been extremely down. It’s amazing how you can feel good for about an hour in between depression episodes, and then drown again as if nothing good has ever happened. But I did things, I made beautiful jewelry, I made lots of sketches, and I’m even hosting a birthday sale-contest on etsy. Just walking like bombs aren’t falling around me.

I’m very ready for the 2018 witcher read-along. I will talk more of it this week. For now it’s enough to know I have the books prepared for it, and hope they re-print the new copies on time.

Hope you’re having much better time than I do.

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Summary:

Strange week, really. One day there’s enough work for me to sit on it from dawn to dawn. The next one I barely have anything to do. My health got a bit wonky too, but I think that’s just a sign I need to start on the closing season for the morning jogs, and instead take up the exercise bike at home. I don’t like that thing. I like riding a real bike outside, but inside, the trainer, there’s too much freedom on it. Next thing you know, I’m no longer holding the handles, but reading a book on my phone. And I just don’t achieve as much if I don’t put my mind to it. But, anyway, let’s get back to the week itself. Tho now I feel awkward with the idea of “let’s see what my week was, because all of you care!” . . . :

  • I’ve read Joe Hill book “NOS4A2” (Nos-Four-A-Two – nosferatu), and while this wasn’t the best book ever, I liked it more than anything I’ve read by King so far. I still have hopes to find something I truly love by King. Nothing against the author, I do like the man, and the ideas he has, but not enough to force his work upon myself.
  • Tomorrow a trip to post office, for someone in USA didn’t pick up their package for over 2 months, so they returned it to me. I wrote the person already, informing them, asking to confirm the address, but so far – no reply. I think I’ll keep it for half a year, if nothing happens, I’ll just return the money to them, wherever they are, and re-sell this piece.
  • I still really lack the room for proper crafting. To the point where I’m thinking how could I possibly suspend my router somewhere. I fear that the wire might slip out of it. Or if I hang it upside down – it’ll bend to the point where it’ll break. On top of that, it has to be reachable, since, I mean, it’s a bloody router, requiring restarting now and again, and all that.
  • Discussed future plans with one of the companies I work with, the same one that has my contract end this month. Mostly I wanted to know how possible it’d be for me to get a spot at one of their Scottish locations if they came about re-hiring me when the next English>Lithuanian project arose. Then spoke about this with a Scotsman friend, with greater knowledge of economy and politics than my own. Sad to say, but Germany, as future location, scored a point yet again, due to the turmoil Great Britain is currently going through, and dragging the countries of the island along. Don’t get me wrong, Germany is great, but work-wise I’ve not really anything to do there to justify it. Nor do I have a work-related buffer to transition from this country, to that country if the destination is Germany.
  • I keep getting marvelous ideas for jewelry, but lack the time to make them. So I sketch them mostly and await the end of this month, when likely I will have some time at last. I’ve a great idea for a little icy cold collection!

And I think that’s that then. Thanks to all the friends who felt like giving me that extra time and attention this week, I really needed that ❤

Smol Log | 11-07

A small update, and little thoughts. I’m doing pretty good with NaNoWriMo. The story is nothing special, really, but I’m glad I’m getting it out of my system for once. I had this story in me since I was around 14, so that’s more than a decade now. And while writing I kept referring to one character in different words, indicating different possible age. It all came down to who’s observing him. To someone closer to his age, he’s a young man, to someone far older – he’s a boy. And it dawned upon me, how weird it is that so many guys find it offensive to be called boys. Women get called girls all the time, really, all the damn time, it’s just sort of a “kinder word” at times, which isn’t the case, it’s not, don’t use it that way. But people do it. Yet “boy” is not kinder, unless your grandma calls you that. Why?

Yesterday mum had a very bad episode of pain. It’s ridiculous how no one can do anything, and just keep sending her from one doctor to another, with excuses such as “I’m not the specialist of this particular thing” – so why in oblivion were you assigned? Why did your colleague send us to you? Why did you make her come in, knowing what the visitation will be about in advance? Because they can decline a visitation, they really can, but they never do!

My right eye keeps hurting badly all day today. I suspect my blood pressure is through the roof due to the over stressing and lack of sleep. The only good come out of it via these two days is that I’ve read Summer Palace by C.S. Pacat, and it was very sweet, and captivating enough to put my mind at ease so that in the end I could indeed fall asleep, and not just stare at the ever lighter ceiling through the night, thinking too many thoughts, overthinking too many things.

To end this on a positive note: Dracula fandom is real damn nice. People are kind and accepting, it’s so weird. I wrote a mere post, only vaguely mentioning that the last three nights of terror were at last beaten with help of a book that featured Dracula in it, and many replied, telling me more stories, recommending more books. In his life the warlord was surrounded by a very miscellaneous soldiers. It seems that he picked people not by their birth or rank, but by their capabilities, and likely regretted the times he couldn’t follow this rule (due to known recorded failures, that happened when people who weren’t close circle got involved in his plans). Just made me think, that somehow that man still picks people by hand.

Yes, I am aware I’m a bit crazy. But I like people who struggle to not only survive, but win against all the odds. Like Watney from The Martian, you know?

Summary | 30-05

What a week, I tell you. Got sick. Got stressed. Got sicker. Got into a dark slum of mood. Read a book on Dracula, got better. Just like that, yes. So what happened, let’s see:

  • One of my work contracts ends this month, and I’m mighty upset about it. Because mother’s insurance ends this month too. Meaning December will be lesser income and higher expenses month, and I am terrified. Yes, I am actively seeking another freelance translation job English>Lithuanian, or any proper projects that pay. I would be able to adjust my schedule, yes.
  • I’ve received an Elk postcard from Sweden, and it was the funniest thing. I like it.
  • I am pretty done with organizing all the goodies I have received from USA, and have already made a bracelet. I also understood that I think “oh, this is so vampiric looking”, while no one else sees it. Great, whatever!
  • Jeaniene Frost has entered my top favorite authors. How does one call a trinity that is made out of four?
  • My soap dispenser is driving me nuts. You pump – air. Pump again – grain dollop of soap. Pump the third time – HERE, HAVE HALF A BOTTLE YOU DIRTY DIRTY HUMAN!
  • I am extremely tempted to paint my table black. But I don’t want to waste the very good paint. But this is the only paint I have ever worked with that doesn’t have a hard smell to it.
  • I might be obsessed with Dracula more than I thought. The warlord, not the vampire, though I do not mind the vampire either. Thank you all those who send me what they find with him, I appreciate everything!
  • NaNoWriMo is going far better than I thought. Knock on wood. Just in case.
  • I have Iorveth in a picture frame on my shelf. In the future I hope to have the Impaler too.
  • Couldn’t sleep these past two days. They’re overheating our apartment. We’ve no say in this, no control over the heat either.
  • For some reason the mat finish of my laptop mouse pad is peeling, leaving a super mirrory surface. I don’t use it, so I don’t care, I just smacked two panda stickers on it! Pandas fix everything.

~Red lips like strawberry wine! Her kiss says she’ll never be mine~

Log | Inktober, Organizing, and NaNoWriMo

I have finished Inktober! I set to do it, and I did it, by the official prompt too, all pandas. I’m very proud of myself, because this was the first challenge I set for myself this year, and I have not failed. So, for me, Day One was October 1st, and just how great is that?

That said, I have just entered NaNoWriMo data into the official page, and will begin writing every day tomorrow, to reach the goal of 50.000 words in a month, a novel in one month. Now, this one has a far greater chance to be a fail, but then, how can it be a fail, if I start and write at least a quarter of that, right? It’s nothing but gain to try. I found this great inspirational blog entry on Goodreads, if anyone needs encouragement: [These 24 books won NaNoWriMo]. Don’t know about you, but I have half of these books on my to-read list, and some I’ve already read, so, woah.

I’m working on an awesome project I won’t share details on, just gonna say it involves a lot of paper and paper-y testing, so I need quite a bit of space around me. And I don’t have a lot of that to begin with, so I’ve been re-organizing my shelves today for at least a couple hours, with Hocus Pocus playing in the background. I can’t say I’m a 100% pleased with the results, but some things did work out in my favor. See, I want practicality more than I want beauty, but then if it’s practical but ugly – I feel bad for it. I’m so ready to pack some books away. I just need to dedicate a day, take pictures, upload the good stuff on ebay or whatnot, and the rest – give away, donate. I mean, I don’t even have all the books I truly and honestly want to have in paper, for keeps, forever and ever, so why would I hang on to stuff I don’t care about all that much? So if I could just get rid of one side of my bookshelf, keeping the other one as a wall between my work space and the rest of the room – that’d be great. We’ll see tho. For the time being I’m ded and dusty. Yes. Ded.

Yesterday was a great day btw. I received two great things from USA, and I’m so sorry for everyone who ever sent me anything from USA, the shipping for you is the worst!

I’ve got a wonderful postcard with a letter in it, that inspired me, and made me very happy. And I’ve got a very heavy package full of crafting supplies. No joke, it’s a giant-ass bag full of beads, chains, bits and pieces, and oh it is glorious, fam, it is so very glorious. I’ve been sifting through it, allowing my mind to wander around in the possibilities. Except great things. But likely only in December, I’m giving myself some fair share of slack here for NaNoWriMo. But we’ll see, really, I type really fast, so maybe it won’t be a challenge at all!

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In the meantime, I continue to organize things in that small way, you know? where you shuffle things around, put them tidier together, maybe make a box for this thing, and get a rubber band to hold it together for that thing. If I remember anything I was supposed to tell you – I’ll write about it soon. Like, I’d like to tell you how Julie and Julia movie has inspired me to blog in the first place, for once.

Log + Summary | Hectic!

Last week was hectic. For one, there was so much work, and so many updates in work, that I was just not coping anymore. For two, I had a bad spell of depression to pass through. I’ve manic depression, so I don’t just mop around… It’s just bad, really. And for three, my laptop decided it had enough of me, and made me reinstall whole OS.

  • Received the three parts of a super secret little project that has things to do with reusability of office supplies. Among them were Blu Tack | Glu Dots, in this amazing cold-pink box with a rainbow on it. I never loved a package box as much as I love this one, it’s just so bright and colorful. Then a funny thing happened, that we took as a good sign: I have this silky cloth heart on the side of my table, someone put it there many years ago, and I just kept it (now there’s a panda, two transparent, green, and blue, cat stickers, a sticky note with a reminder, and a tiny origami bat), and that day it decided it will fall off. Well, guess what, I had the glu-dots in my hands as it did so, and just re-glued it back on. Aka: <universe> here, let me show you that the thing you have really works, by breaking a thing so that you can fix it with what you have.
  • I’m back on Riverdale, Supernatural, and Outlander wagon, and am eagerly awaiting Stranger Things to happen finally.
  • Am about 10 books short from a 100 goal this year.
  • I will do NaNoWriMo, but I don’t know whether I’ll publish it, and won’t know it until I finally write it.
  • Vibes_avatarHaven’t missed a day in Inktober, yes, it’s all happy smiling pandas with one or two funny exceptions. It’s all about those positive vibes, fam, it’s all bout those positive vibes.
  • Made some jewelry, I’m real happy with one of them, and mostly happy with the other one, and am excited for one idea too. But that’s for my patrons to listen me ramble about! <hint hint, nudge nudge>
  • Reinstalled my W10, and dealt with PC overheating all over again. Too much power, not enough chill, you know? Clocking things down works tho, and there’s still enough juice to run all the things I want to run. It’s much better now, so it’s a good thing.
  • Due to the first project I mentioned in this entry, I tidied up hard, but am still in great shortage of space. I would accept a gift of a house, thank you.
  • Mother has an appointment on 30th this month, and hopefully she can set a firm date for surgery. Want to know the truth of why is this being delayed over, and over, and over, even thought she’s in gradually increasing pain, every day? Because everyone awaits some palm grease. If anything else, don’t be that ass in this life, and you’ll be able to consider yourself a worthy human.
  • Followed news on weather in Scotland, had interesting information handed about climate too. And I bet you thought that talking about weather is boring!
  • Book “Coraline” by Neil Gaiman is kinda scary, but I like it.

That’s roughly all. Roughly, I’m sure I forgot many things. Some I write down as time goes through the day, some I don’t, and those are usually the ones I forget.

How’s your week been?

Summary: 02-08

This week just up and disappeared, I tell you. I don’t even know what really happened, other than me being drowned in work, and some people making fools of themselves. Well, let’s see anyway:

  • I finished second season of Lucifer on Netflix, currently here it’s the last one, tho some people already have the third one.
  • Second book of Witcher was re-printed, but right now I’ve nothing to spare, so I’ll kindly wait. Yet I am looking forward to the trip to the local bookstore to get it!
  • Pulled a muscle, and it hurts like hell.
  • Tidied up more of my crafting supplies, and made a gorgeous little thing with a dragon on it.
  • Got through a week of Inktober successfully, and am pretty sure I’ll do NaNoWriMo, tho I’m really not sure if I’ll make it public.
  • It’s cold, wet, and rainy out here, and I’m not happy about it at all. Mum is catching a cold. She had a biopsy on Tuesday, but we don’t know the results yet.
  • I’m almost in the 90s of read books this year, I think I’m hitting my records by the end of the year.
  • Watched “Unfriended” and I’m pretty sure that was the worst crap I have ever seen. But then I read “Do Androids Dream Electric Sheep”, and I loved it, so it fixed my mood a bit.
  • I’m wearing two pairs of socks, and am cold.


~Chu-chu bang chu-chu bank~

Summary: 25-01

Okay, so, since it was far easier to write everything down in bulletin form, I think we’ll try that again, okay? Can’t say that a lot happened, but hey, that’s due to all the work I had, which, in itself, is a good thing:

  • Elder Scrolls Online began new season of the treasure boxes, didn’t get anything good in them, but I don’t mind, they’re nice anyway.
  • Cleaned my closet nice and proper. Found a little hook to keep my shirts a bit straighter. I mean the ones I wear constantly, and so they don’t get their closet-time.
  • Finished four paintings. Two with panda’s, one with prince Laurent of Vere. Yep. That’s happening again.
  • Re-listened to first two books of Captive Prince, and gone through such long-term to-reads as Pride and Prejudice and Zombies, and Hemlock Grove (yes, the book is better than the series).
  • Friend got me a physical copy of this old Dracula game. I have it on steam, but I collect all things Dracula, so this is great!
  • Finished up Mabon sale, it was pretty great, I hope everyone will like their presents. Also made one jewelry piece to a friend in general, because, apparently, sometimes some things just are right for one person, and no one else, so I had to.
  • Started Inktober! Because it’s just one little step between “One Day” and “Day One“.
  • Watched Rhett and Link’s “Buddy System” at last, and it was everything I could’ve wanted!
  • Finished season 6 of Game of Thrones, and season 2 of Strain. It’s “okay” and “meh“.

Work? Do you want to know even? Translated 4 contracts, 3 manuals, and started the project “when you can’t figure out what PC means from context: it could mean this“, because editing people’s works is the worst part of my job.

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Summary: 18-24

Hazy week, can’t describe it any other way. It started with a very hurtful thing, and I’m not someone who can just let go, so of course I’m carrying it about with me. Other than that, this is what happened, in no particular order:

  • Elder Scrolls Online started 5 days long event where you log in, kill a monster, and secure yourself one free box from the new Autumn set that’ll replace the Summer set on 28th this month.
  • GTA5 Online made new adversary mode called Bombushka, and that’s likely the worst shit they have ever made. No time limit, so if you’re good pilot, with poor chopper pilots on the enemy team – you can sit in that game for two hours, making less money with double payout than you would after playing five games in same time that don’t pay double.
  • I’ve read Pride And Prejudice and Zombies three times. Yes. And I’m still not sure what’s what. So there’s zombies, and all the girls want to get married, and not one man is what he seems?
  • Had a great Wednesday chat with my friend, and that was a breaking point where I stopped feeling so bad.
  • One friend from USA made an extremely good point about my situation in life, and how anyone could be in my place, including her.
  • Watched Lady Gaga‘s documentary on Netflix. I like the woman. But I loved the point where she was laying there, crying in pain, turned to camera and said: I don’t know what I’d do, if I didn’t have money. Because by that point people were feeding her meds, giving her shots, massaging her, basically trying to make her better right there, right then, something money can afford. My mother’s in a lot of pain, and it’s getting worse, and other than getting her painkiller shots every other day – we can do nothing more, because we can’t afford it.
  • I started Mabon – Autumn Equinox sale on [Etsy], it’s -22% on purchase + a little jewelry surprise. It’s going pretty well so far. (code: PUMPKING)
  • Am eagerly awaiting mail on Monday.
  • Cleaned a lot of things. My supplies are a lot more organized now, even tho it’s still not perfect.
  • Finished Jackdaw. Missing Lucien. Missing Laurent too for some reason. Painted Laurent.
  • I’ve decided I’ll get the two magpies on my hip, on the side. For one, that’s the least painful piece of skin, for two, I think hips suit the origin of magpies, for three, I love hip and side tattoos a lot. Due to my self-made tattoo being in progress for many years now, because I’m shit at typography, it’s far more likely magpies will be my first tattoo. And it’s very fitting, because two’s for joy. I’ll be happy when this is over. I will be.

Summary: 11-17

Not too much this week, not too much. But wasn’t a lazy week either. I mostly painted paintings, and repainted things, in between my actual work.

First of all, I painted Vernossiel from TW3: Wild Hunt, a female scoia’tael commander you can find somewhere in Velen (she’s part of a witcher contract quest), and I’m pretty damn happy about it. It didn’t get much feedback, but hey, life’s not all about feedback. Besides, that’s mostly due to friends going through their own rough times.

Got my silver colored Molotow paint marker at last, and went to town with it, so to speak. I repainted an orange skull goblet silver, because orange is not my thing, to be honest. I painted all the scraped up, shabby things that I had laying about too, like drawer handles, bottle caps, old cabochons. And painted some experimental pieces too, for testing purposes, because, say, fimo, has oils in it, and these paints are alcohol based, so I’ll see whether fimo can take the painting in any of the forms (raw pre-bake, post bake).

I’ve listened to the book “Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself“, and, honestly, some things make too much sense there. I might try to implement these things into my meditations, even if I don’t believe some of the things said there. Maybe I just need to change that part of me that doesn’t believe, and everything will be okay, who knows? We’ll see.

Then I tidied up some of my [Etsy] listings, not all of them so far, but quite a few. Yes, there’s new items among them therefor.

And, well, that’s about that. Other than the fact that we’r’e risking getting electricity cut off, mum’s in a shitton of pain, and it’s intensifying, and that we’re bumping heads in Netflix during the only time I can watch it – I welcome autumn. Got tea, got warm socks.

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