Summary [14-20]

Well, nothing happened. I just worked, and worked more. Painted, I think, 4 things, and received commissions for another 4. Made two really good looking necklaces. The rest were translations that left me with little time to read.

Saw a wet, but seemingly jolly little birdy today, a very beautiful little thing, with clay-red head, and green-blue shoulders. Dropped him a few bits of the bread I was carrying. While brave little fella didn’t fly away with the relatively close proximity to a human, it still waited for me to back the hell away from the offerings before it started pecking at them.

Been drinking liters of cold brew tea due to the heat, and today, finally, it’s raining! Oh, chill air, how welcome you are. Tho don’t stay, and give some warmer days back now and again, okay?

Summary: 07-13

On Monday friend visited me, we walked around, seeing sights, burning to a crisp. It was a pretty nice day, even tho it threatened to rain a bit – it didn’t. I burned my face quite a bit, but it already passed (yes, I peeled like a snake). At home we watched The Family, a gangster movie, right up my alley ❤

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There’s this path leading to no where (I guess it was a small port for small leisure water vehicles), away from canal. I love that place to bits. For one, it has asphalt covered sides on each side – I’m a city child, I don’t find pleasure in taking off bugs that get from grass on me, so I really preferred sitting on that. Then, at the end, there’s really just nothing. Stairway leading down, into the water, and a sharp cut-off, secured with cement blocks. There’s nothing but the sounds of waves there.

Later in week I was told some of the postcards already securely reached their destinations, so that was a happy little surprise. Got some banana flavored tea too, unusual, and most likely will get sent away to other tea lovers out there, but I’m glad for the chance to try all of the things!

The best thing, I guess, is the fact that we got a washing machine! In our small town we don’t have the laundry machines to wash our clothes, so every day after work, I’d wash my jogging clothes, and work clothes by hand, which is irritating, a bit wasteful on water (by hands I can’t wash it out as good, so I don’t let it get as dirty either: where I could wear the same jeans for two, three days maybe, and then wash it in washing machine, by hand – I cannot risk it, the goddamn ends drag across everything, and collect all they bloody can), and time consuming, same time I could use for doing more work. So now I can relax a tiny little bit.

I also finished a painting for a friend, her Original Character from The Witcher Saga fan-fiction, Yrdenne, and started reading “Gentleman’s Guide to Vice and Virtue“, which is just bloody amazing, really. And today we made carrot jam! I hate carrots, but I like this jam a lot.

 

Summary 31-06

A lot of translation offices I have contacts with had people run off for vacation, so my week was hectic. Between three jobs of my own, I took a couple emergency pieces from them too. Worst one was a pro bono for a friend, a death certificate.

At the start of the week I raided the bookstore, first time in like 3 years I actually bought a book, and 7 postcards. The book is “The Last Wish” by Andrzej Sapkowski, a republished, and retranslated piece (we had our translations way before the first game even came out), so I’ve counted it as work practice – translation comparison. And the seven postcards went to: 4 to Germany, 1 to New Orleans (USA), 1 to Asia (can’t spell the country, so I won’t), 1 to Bulgaria. I’m a little worried about the Nola one, because they’re having floods, and these postcards are biodegradable, not very happy about the possible water.

The Witcher book is beautiful, tho inside it has the Wolf Medallion drawing, which kinda looks like raccoon?… Didn’t make a picture, too lazy. The bookmark, in the meantime, seems to have visited Captive Prince trilogy. “Hello, lover

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I’ve gotten myself a haircut, mohawk is back, and my head is getting some air. I look like a human being again! Oh, and when I went to post office… Well, I had to go twice. Each time I got caught in the sudden heavy rain that ends fast, but leaves you drenched to the bone. BUT! It was very warm, nice, and I don’t regret a thing.

On, and then there’s this:

Log: 08.01

The week has just begun, and there’s already bunches of stuff happening!

The new translation company I started working with uses this new (for me), and ridiculous system of payments. Ridiculous, because the system requires minimum of 50e for withdrawals. Meaning you have to get a full paycheck before it allows you to take it. What’s the damn point in that if you’re hobbyist etsy seller, for instance? (thou etsy now offers direct payments, and they’re very dutiful about it)

Last month we only had a couple of small works, so my full paycheck for the first month  was 50e, but then after taxes it’s about 43e, so I’ll get paid with this month. Or rather, I’ll be allowed my money then. It’s not deadly, since it’s not the only company I work with, but it’s still mighty unpleasant.

Currently I’m allowing myself a couple hours of free time to read a book, and evaluate the translation. This is a re-published book of A. Sapkowski “The Last Wish“, first book, and first collection of short stories in The Witcher Saga. We had these translated for us long before the first game was ever released, by real good publishers (thou funny covers). But this, so far, seems pretty good too. Translator has a good baggage of words, even thou some of them are funny in our language, and thus takes out a bit from this dark atmosphere Witcher books have. But other than that – it’s pretty fine.

They better not make next book “Blood of Elves“, or I’ll be bloody mad.

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Summary Log

The week was odd to say the least. Some things went great, others were bad, and some were superbly upsetting. Most of the bad things are either the same old: extreme lines to doctors, sometimes as far away as 8 months, while my mother is in pain today. Other things are not mine to tell. In general, I’ve not much to tell, there was just so much work, that nothing really happened due to it.

Best thing that did happen tho, was this:

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Mail from Germany, look at that damn envelope ❤ I feel like Oscar Wilde just holding it.

Oh, and today starts new series of “Starkevicius” (that’s a joke they told), so I’m awaiting that eagerly.

Summary: Death Note, The Wolf Among Us 2, and Oscar Wilde

Eh, alright, I’ve been having real rough couple of weeks. Depression kicked my ass hard, and just some general bad things keep happening all over. Like my kettle broke (I fixed it, but I was real worried for a good hour), grandma had a bad spell, my sleep got all messed up, where I’d wake myself due to whiny noises I’d make in my sleep, and so on and on. But I can’t really say all things are bad either.

For one, there’s a lot of great previews, like trailer/teaser for [Death Note] (as my friend said, the actor who plays Light doesn’t seem to know what’s acting like, but otherwise it might still work), and trailer for [Full Metal Alchemist].

Netflix did release [Castlevania] at last, and I think I skipped writing about it, because I was so bummed out, but yes, I’ve already watched all 4 episodes, that make under two hours of goodness. No, I have not played all the games, and I would love to, but 2D side-scrollers are often too hard for me, ever since I’m like 20 years out of the skill range (no, really, I’m sure every kid can beat those games, but not my dumb ass). I have two newer ones on Steam, and I’ll come around to playing those. So as someone with minimal knowledge, I’ll say this: it’s easy to follow, and it’s amazing.

Then there’s [Cyberpunk 2077] update, where they talk about the classes: rockstars, journalists, etc. Great, guys, can we maybe get the game before 2077 tho? Because you telling us for 5 years how it’s going to be groundbreaking is kinda pointless. Much like my grandma claiming those shoes are brand new, never worn, and expensive. But they’re 25 years old, and for less you can get better at any shop now, you know?

Best of all were the news on [The Wolf Among Us 2], that game was something epic, I played it over, and over, and when I felt stressed at work, I’d just turn on the intro screen, and allow that to be my bg music. The neon lights, clouds of cigarete smoke, wonderful music, good story, and superb characters are all I want right now. And Telltale must be my fav games in general.

Yesterday I cleaned my little corner up, making everything a little bit worse, but at the same time, it’s progress towards making it a little bit more usable space-wise. I’ve stacks, and stacks of written material, books I wrote, or am still writing, translations, studies, literal studies data, book reviews. And then hundreds upon hundreds of paintings. So I shoved things around a bit.

As a reward, or so I feel like Universe might have wanted to reward me, friend gave me a cup today, a nice tall white mug with Oscar Wilde quote to it. She had a few, showed me, and said I will probably like this one, pointing at it, and I did. She merely guessed I might like Wilde, and she could not have been more right.

With freedom, books, flowers, and the moon, who could not be happy?” – Oscar Wilde

All I’m missing right now is freedom. ❤

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King Mindaugas name’s day

We celebrate this name day of King Mindaugas, which happened to be on 6th of this month. Imagine my joy, when one day – American clients didn’t reply, and the next day you knew – Lithuanian clients won’t, since it’s a national holiday. Had to do the work for 3 days in a single one. But let’s talk about the good stuff instead.

A friend came to visit me on that day, and we went out. Weather was pulling all kinds of tricks. One moment we’re cooking, the next we’re being rained on, then dried by the merciless sun again. At some point it rained into my sunglasses. Someone explain me how?

We walked past this fenced off piece of Elektrenai, my hometown, of the less used, but nice, wide, and flat street, together with a park that had ramps made out of packed dirty some years before, due to road not being used, and being in a very good place for any rally’s, bike-shows, and so on. Yes, being a small town, we do get a lot of those.

When we walked forth, bikes were going in laps, roaring madly. Some promo girl gave us non-alcoholic beer. Neither of us drinks, beer is definitely not for everyone, alcoholic or not, so in unison we both took a can each, and packed them away to bring back home, to someone who would drink it. Why take it if you won’t have it? Because the girl carrying that beer through the crowd looked like she’d gladly throw it out if she could get away with it. I doubt it was easy, for she definitely had a few six-packs on her.

Then we went through the forest, picked some herbs up for my jewelry making, and headed back, and what perfect timing we did. Lorry trucks (without the parts that carry produce in it, just the fronts) were drifting on the road, and it was amazing. There was smoke, colored smokes, and so much noise! At one point wind blew away the inflatable ark, but it did not stop the show.

So all in all, the day was good, and the show was pretty cool too.

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Have I told you that my umbrella’s aluminum handle rod broke in my hand and sliced my finger open? Well, it happened. As of today, my finger stopped hurting, and I can continue with all of the work as before, without flinching at the stinging sensation received due to pressure of holding a pen, or pliers.

The cut was not deep, but it took a broad enough area, chumming off skin, and digging into the meat. I bled like a piggy.

Currently I’m doing a commission painting, of this adorable little girl, and her baby brother, all updates of that will end up on my Patreon first. I’m mentioning this case as an exceptional one, because this was the first time someone asked me to paint their children. We’ll just have to see how that goes. I asked about colors and style, because let’s face it, I rarely deal with realism (althou there was once this young man with a very nice smile who asked me to paint him, I tried to keep realism there, and I hope he’s happy with the picture), and will proceed to coloring when I get the reply.

Commissions are fairly simple, and depending on situation, we can agree whether I get paid before or after you get the painting. Scans are always same price, it’s always 15 euros a piece, unless it’s a monochrome, then we can go down to 10 euros. I mostly prefer dealing with it by personal messages over facebook, but anywhere you write me will be fine in the end.

Log: Summary 26-02

Well, Steam sale started. Got myself a ton of cards, and gift games, which is always appreciated, but really don’t feel obliged, I have more than I can play for the time being. My Dracula games collection is pretty much complete too, and I’m trying real hard to play that first point-and-click adventure game, but wooh geez it’s difficult with the movements.

It’s hard to remember what happened during the week, my mind’s a scramble. I’m under a lot of stress, and in a lot of anxiety, so all days become one, and it just doesn’t occur to me to mark things down as they go, because, well, why would you think that this meager event would become the highlight of your week at the end of it?

But on the good news, I’ve a lot of work, and a few commissions to that. Paid work is great! Gives me hope! The good kind, the solid kind, not the “maybe it’d happen” kind, not the “a miracle might happen” kind.

Alright, this month ended up a flop due to the damn doctor visitations. We had to have 4, with one emergency, so I once again look at unpaid bills, and wonder if I should pray. I’m at the point where a voice in my head just hunches shoulders, and says “nothing else worked, it couldn’t hurt”. Thanks to some people here tho those visitations were possible. I’m really not sure I would’ve pulled four on my own.

Small personal bad thing is that I locked myself out of digital translation office, and they’re not giving me a reset code. It could be due to it being the weekend. Or it could be due to them thinking I’m an idiot. In that case someone out there is preparing firing papers, because they won’t keep me if I don’t keep up with the work, which I can’t do, because I can’t access it!

I’d be willing to offer, thus, a free commission portrait in exchange for a promo. The only requests on my part would be: either have decent views, or stable friendships. Promo would mean a copy-paste of the campaign, or at the very least – relink to a journal entry.

I made a lot of new jewelry too! They’re all underpriced if we consider the time it took to make them, and they’re all as good a quality as I could make them, thus – nothing I wouldn’t wear myself. All links to that are below.

Your Good Deed of the Day: As you may know, or not really, my fam’s in enough trouble for me to have three jobs, and us still be underfed. My mother’s anemic, with broken arm ligaments that left her hand useless, she lost her insurance, and the pains she’s having are borderline unbearable. Medication is by far not free. My father has a poor heart, blood pressure through the roof, diabetes, and now a suspected colon cancer. There’s still a slim chance it’s something else, like a hard ulcer that ends up pumping blood into his guts, and thus makes it seem like it’s cancer, but tests are also paid, and each one crushes another shard of hope. The previous surgeries they had, and the mortgage has put us into deep debt, no joke, we’re looking at approximately 12k euros a year if we don’t wish to end up on street, or parents – in debtor jail. But that would pretty much be all, and unless another emergency struck us – I could pull this on my own.

I’m a freelance translator on the side, regular translator during the night (due to time zone differences), and then every-side-job-I-can-get kid during the day. Means some days I make web pages, other days I write paid blog entries, third day I do journalism and spew 4 articles in 12 hours. I make jewelry, I paint, and after almost 3 years of this – really, I don’t care what else I have to do, as long as there’s hope it’ll end before I expire. I’ve manic depression, it comes with insane suicidal tendencies, and there were times when I doubted I’ll see morning. On top of this gem, I’m transgender, something no one would accept here if they knew, it’s a small town, in a homophobic country. So I’m not even in a good place. And since I can’t pay both mine, and parent’s bills, I have to live with them, just so they can have as much use of me as I can possibly provide. I love them just about enough to repeat this to myself every time I can’t stop thinking about a pill bottle, a scalpel I use for carving, and pencil sharpening, a sturdy belt… But no one’s reading, I feel, so let’s get to the point.

Commissions in exchange for donations!

My past commissions:

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MaitsoKane: Rules

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Yrdenne: Rules

I will jump on this train and offer Commissions to anyone who donates! 😀
You know that I can´t draw, but you can commission poems, short stories, background stories for your OCs etc.
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* Or get Soukyan a coffee: [Ko-Fi tip]
* show me proof
* send me a note and tell me what I shall write for you!
(please understand that there might be things I just can´t or don´t want to write, feel free to ask in advance!)
* please check out my short stories and poems:
http://yrdenne.deviantart.com/gallery/61839376/Background-Stories

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