Funny thing, I realized that the music and the jewelry I make no longer match up. I listen to this… well, very specific sounding rap these days, mostly found thanks to GTA5 radio stations, all the while making fantasy jewelry.
I admit, I’d like to make stuff that aligns more with what I listen to, but I really am low on most of the jewelry parts, and every cent I make goes to debts there and here, and there and here, and I end up with nothing for myself. Worst is, right now, after giving up all my b-day money to it, I’ve not made a dent.
At first I thought this is just too sad to post: I gave the bday money to debtors. But then I thought… The day I don’t need to do that will be the day people won’t be giving me money, and instead maybe will just buy me cupcakes and tea, while we sit and chat, eye-to-eye. So this is not actually a sad thing, my friends simply know what my life is, and this is their way of helping me, and I appreciate it.
For better or for worse, I now have a Patreon too.
As I was making my Lapis Lazuli (Blue Bloods) necklace, with my fingers scratched, cold, and stained, feeling as stiff as they looked, I noticed myself smiling. I was enjoying what I did. This was it, I was happy, I was proud, I thought of it as beautiful, which is not something I often think of my own work.
So, next obvious step was to take my friend’s advice and get Patreon. I always thought I have nothing to offer, but sometimes, I guess, what you do is enough of an offer. I can’t draw comics, as much as I would love to. I paint portraits, but they’re very simple. I make real interesting postcards, but that’s kinda it. The rest is jewelry.
I logged in with caution, thus. When I could, I was a patron to one artist there, but then my situation forced me out of all the things I liked. Having a patron account means you only have to switch it to become an artist account, which I did, still cautious, unsure of how will this ever work.
And you know what? This was the best decision ever. Why? Because I’m tired of instagram’ing shit, where you get likes from bots, sales accounts, accounts that serve only one purpose – getting likes and followers, and then a few friends there and here, if they saw it even. Because twitter is too small. Because facebook has a harmful algorithm. Because blogging about one piece of jewelry with tens of pictures to it of wire bits, and loops is not something easily doable. But Patreon got it covered.
The night I made it I spent uploading singular pictures, and collections on there, telling short little stories where it was relevant. For once I felt free to talk about a picture of a snapped-off jewelry nail. So if nothing else, Patreon is a wonderful outlet for me.
And while I’m still not sure how it’ll all work, and work out, I don’t feel stressed over it, because anyone can opt out at any given time. And the fact that my first patron is a friend of mine, who, I hope, still remembers I wasn’t always the worst breed of a person, makes it a little bit more… Rather, LESS, sterile, cold, and corporate-feeling.
So, come around, visit me, there’s a lot of free to view stuff (most of it is, actually), for some you have to register thou, I think. And for just one buck, you can view the rest of it too: https://www.patreon.com/blackwood